Being disabled, a lot of things become either/or rather than both.
I can have energy to socialize, or I can work. By the time I’ve gone through my work week I have next to no energy or ability left to be social. If I try to socialize on my days off, I end up so burned out that I’ll struggle to make it through my next work week or end up missing work.
I can keep up with chores around the house, or I can work. Without a job I can spend my daily energy budget organizing and cleaning, and not overdo it. With a job I get home in the evening and spend the last of my energy getting food before I recuperate until bed time. After working 5 days in a row all I can do is use the last 2 to recharge so I can do it all over again.
A lot of things get set aside until an indefinite “later.” Important phone calls. Appointments. Errands. Even personal projects and art, things I’d love to dedicate more of my time to.
I have to make choices between work and having a life outside of it–and work wins almost every time because it’s keeping me afloat. Everything else starts feeling like a demand I can’t meet. Even family and friends, sometimes especially them. Especially when they know that this is the situation and pressure me to do more.
I really wish I had the ability to juggle work and everything else that’s important in my life at the same time, but I don’t.
people who have not worked in the service industry in years (if at all, ever) will be like “you have to work SATURDAYS? 😰” yeah man things you guys go to are open those days. So there i must fucking be
when gerard way sings “the broken, the beaten, and the damned” and when kermit the frog sings “the lovers, the dreamers, and me” they’re talking about the same people btw
i think it’s p awesome that the first compasses invented in china were not magnetic, but in fact mechanical - the cart with the little wooden man pointing south was built in a way that no matter which way the cart turned, the little man would always point south
this is a model of what it looked like
how does this work? it’s so cool and confusing
the gears are aligned in a way to always turn the little man in the opposite direction as the cart at the same rate of rotation. so if the man points at you, and you turn the cart clockwise 90 degrees, the man will be turned counterclockwise 90 degrees, and still be facing you. if you turn the cart counterclockwise 90 degrees, the man will be turned clockwise 90 degrees, and still be facing you
as for how they got the cart to point south to begin with, that goes into fengshui and cardinal direction geomancy. but long story short, the workshops that built these carts would have their front doors facing south to begin with (using the sun and the stars to figure out which way is south), so all they would have to do is build the cart facing that direction, and the little man will always point south
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